long time no blog

Wow.. I nearly forgot I had one of these things! Well, I might as well update, I finished my 2nd year of Uni several weeks ago and I'm currently back in HK enjoying my Summer Holidays and then I'm back to the UK on the 17th of September. Everything is fine and dandy, with the exceptions of:

- my results - I have absolutely NO idea what I've got this Semester. I'm hoping to God that they are passes (at least)

- my constant worrying about my final year and what lies beyond that.

Well, let me break down my list of worries: First of all, my final year is already stressing me out because I have one module with a teacher I don't particularly like and she scares the shit out of me, I physically try to hide behind people when I'm in her class. She's like an unrelenting dragon-lady one who doles out scary scary presentations and other public speaking related activities (of which I really suck at and therefore try to avoid at all costs). The second is the fact that this is the final year, and yes it's going to be sad, but I can't stop thinking about how much more stress and worries lie ahead of that in life after university. I have no clue as to what I'll do, my mother is heaping pressure on me by saying that I have to stay in the UK for at least another year to gain experience in working in an UK environment. However, I don't particularly want to stay in the UK because there are somethings I just don't like about it, and I often feel isolated by my family. I was born in Hong Kong and I'm 'Hong Kongese' dammit! I love this city and I would like to be nearer to my family for a change. But... there are problems such as my inability to speak proper cantonese/mandarin and having to catch up on reading and writing it because I haven't done so in sooooooo long! and... in addition to that, my mother wants me to find a decent job in the UK. I can try to, but it's not as easy as she thinks it will be.

I really wish I knew what I was doing, I wish I had more confidence in myself and my abilities. Was it easy for anyone (those who still bother to read my xanga) to make such desicions?? What have you all decided to do?? What are you're future plans?? Share them with me... I'm curious as to how you all are going to deal with post-graduate life or if you've already graduated what are you going to/did you do  

Currently Listening Wolfmother By Wolfmother see related

- Colossus

Wow... one year goes by sooo quickly, I can't believe that I'm sitting here in my room in Middlesex, packing away my things from my first year at Uni. This past year has been one of ups and downs, new experiences, embarassing experiences, but generally... just experiences and they've been good they've been bad and right now,

At the moment I'm feeling...indifferent, I mean I am excited to be going back to HK on Sunday, glad to be home and relax a little, without thinking about work deadlines, getting to lecture on time and such. I'm also excited as to what next year holds in stall for me. Sure, it's going to be hard work, since all the modules have upped a level in difficulty, but at least I have my friends at uni to help me if I'm stuck and I'm sure we'll all be struggling through together, but at this particular moment, I'm feeling indifferent because... I'm just tired (over the week my sleep patterns been crazy due to afore mentioned work deadlines and me trying to get them in on time like a mad woman, so three to four hours sleep every so often had me getting up at all sorts of odd hours and going to bed when the sun came up. Anyways... yeah it's because I'm tired and because I'm sitting here waiting for Alex N. to pick me up with all my stuff...

Right now, I'm still sitting in my pyjamas with all my stuff 3/4 packed, just a couple of things left a several boxes to seal up. It's strange to think I've lived in this room for 9 months now and that this part of my life is closing, and a new one is opening (if I can get my new accomodation with Alex sorted before September). It's also strange to think that just this time last year, I was fretting over other things such as revising (I use the word lightly) for my A-levels, doing the decorations for my Sixth Form Leaver's Ball, Having the Ball, and it felt odd at first when I came back to England last September, and doing a completely different routine from the one I've done for five years since 2001 and now, coming back this September will be yet another change in my routine. So as I said before, I've been experiencing so many new things that when I look back, I find it hard to believe that I didn't find it majorly overwhelming at times.

So, as I continue to pack away my things, I remember all my old memories as well, particularly since, starting uni hasn't only brought new friends to me, but I've also re-united with old friends as well, I've also managed to stay in touch with all my boarding school mates and my friend at CDNIS.

All in all, I think it's been a good year.

what a bunch of weirdos we are!

hahahahaha, guess who!

yep... it's us!

Can't wait till you come in Easterrrrr!

Currently Listening Le Grandi Voci Della Canzone Italiana By Alberto Rabagliati see related

- Mattinata Fiorentina

whooooo, I due for another update again. I'm back at Uni after a rather brisk but funfilled xmas holiday in Hong Kong. Now, I'm in my second week of my second semester (haha) and I'm happy but with my normal worryings on certain things such as presentations that are looming in this semester but it's a relatively short semester though! I finish on the 19th unless Ben has been lying to me again about dates. Anyways, I'm enjoying my time thus far, and I love chatting to everyone with msn, I'm so sorry about leaving it on though, while I'm asleep but sometimes, if I do log out it signs me in again! so it's not always my fault. There are several things I can't wait for in the coming days/weeks/months, such as my Lomo ActionSnapper camera to arrive (I just won it on ebay last night!) and for the Easter to come by because Vicky might be coming over to stay for awhile! It's going to be so much funnnnn! (I miss you!) and then after that, I can't wait till it's Summer! and I can't wait to see all of you back out there in HK. (This time we seriously need to go out properly, Komal!). I need a looooong break after a year of ups and downs. However I'm thankful for the chances of meeting new people, reuniting with old mates and memories, and experiencing new things.

anyways... I'll leave you all with my favourite man of the moment:

I felt ill and bored today and so did my friend Alex so we decided to do a stupid photoshoot thingy to cure our boredom: